Some day someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it didn’t work out with anyone else, insha’Allah!
Forgive yourself, So that you can begin to move on with your life. There is no point in beating yourself up over people who were never even strong enough to put up a fight for you in the first place. And just because your love wasnt fully appreciated and reciprocated back in return, It doesn’t mean that something is wrong with you. We have a bad habit of blaming ourselves for other people’s issues and insecurities. There isn’t anything you can do to stop someone from running away from you. Some do it out of fear of being hurt. Some do it from issues stemming from their past when they were a child, And some people do it because the power of love is just too heavy and scary for some people to carry. You need someone strong enough who you can put all of your love on and they wont budge when carrying it. You need someone who would rather give more than they took from you. You need someone completely comfortable with their emotions, Not someone scared of embracing what they are feeling. You need your equal.
When you think about it, love is what you want to be, in any shape, form expression, words emotions… Love is a billion different things for a billion different people.
For me, love is when someone makes you laugh at random moments – but not everytime you’re sad. Sometimes you just need someone there to understand your sadness and warp their arms around you, to tell you everything is going to be okay. Love is when you could stay up for hours and hours into night, talking, talking about nothing that means anything.. Love is when you can be your complete self around the other person without worrying they’d judge you because they already know and love you for who you are. Love is when you make mistakes. When you fight. When you argue, when everything goes wrong. Love is when you realize through all that, you still know you couldn’t live without the other person. So you apologize and make everything better because life too short to not see went wrong and fix it.
Love is when someone means so, so much, words don’t even begin to describe what you feel.
I don’t know how you can smile all day but cry to yourself at night. How pictures never change but people in them do. How your best friend can become your enemy, or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few months that you’d do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without. How you even though you know something is best for you, it hurts just the same. How people once wanted to spend every second of their time with you, think a few minutes of their time too much to spare. How people make promises despite how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can earse you from their lives it’s easier than working out.
“Your problem is how you are going to spend this one and precious life you have been issued. Whether you’re going to spend it trying to look good and creating the illusion that you have power over circumstances, or whether you are going to taste it, enjoy it and find out the truth about who you are.”